Newtown, CT

Editors Note: I always wanted this blog to be just about my diabetes.  However, due to the events of today I feel like this is appropriate as well.  Thanks.


As a parent, my heart aches for those that are and will be affected by the senseless and horrific violence that occurred today in Newtown, CT. at Sandy Hook Elementary School.

I won’t lie – I haven’t read a single story about what has occurred.  I read the headlines with the quotes of how many beautiful children have had their lives cut short so tragically and intentionally stay away.  I have a seriously hard time dealing with things such as this as my mind flashes to the “what ifs:”

• What if it was my child / children?
• What if it wasn’t them but they were the ones who survived?
• What if I something else happens and I never get to hug or hold my little ones again?
• What if, what if, what if…

I don’t have answers to any of those questions, but they will paralyze me if I dwell here too long.  So, I will avoid the news until such time as I will be able to actually sit down and work through each of these questions – until I can bawl my eyes out from the pain – until I can hug and hold my children in safety once again tonight.

But until then I will pray.  I will pray that these children and their families are comforted by our Savior Jesus Christ today and always.  I will pray that my children come home safe to me once again.  And I will pray for one more chance to do things right for each of them.

So tonight, hug and hold your little ones and other loved ones a little closer and pray for those who can’t.