Where does one begin when reflecting on their first year of diabetes? Do I only share the highs? Only the lows? (Honestly, I didn't mean to make such a literal diabetes reference this early in the post...) Do I balance the highs and lows in a practically perfect way? (Oops, there's another one.) Do I then ride an umbrella over London until the camera fades to the credits of my life?
In the vastly complicated world that is diabetes one must every now and then kick back and reevaluate where they are and where they're going. For me that must also include a look at a less than perfect the past. I think that while reflecting on my first diaversary (thanks Kerri for teaching me that word) I'd like to invite you along on my journey of self inspection.
When I started this journey I was a little more prepared than most. Having watched loved ones deal with diabetes for most of my life I knew that someday I might end up taking the same path that they were on. In 2008 I made a valiant attempt at getting myself healthier but shot my efforts in the foot during a family vacation a few months after starting. I gave up hope and couldn't keep my efforts on track. I had tried for four years to be successful, though only half-heartedly. And then, the news finally arrived that I was now climbing my own mountain of diabetes.
This past year has brought about quite a few moments of success -- and a bunch of failures. Is there a ... a yin and yang so to speak, where all of my success must be perfectly balanced by failures? If so, I have quite a pile of successes heading my way -- and sooner, rather than later, would be preferred.
In the meantime, here's a summary of both the good and bad from the last year:
- Eating less carbs
- Substituting less healthy food for carbs
- Lowered my A1c by 1.1 from diagnosis
- A1c crept up by .1 at my last check
- Blog hasn't been posted to regularly
- Started a blog to help me work through the emotional complexities that are diabetes
- Eliminated all caffeine and soda from my life
- Two knee surgeries so I could become more active
- Two knee surgeries left me temporarily less active
- Lost twenty pounds during my first three months as a diabetic
- Gained 16 pounds back during the post-surgery months
- My three oldest children are trying to carb overload me to get their inheritance
- My youngest child cares how many carbs are in items but doesn't comprehend the math to save me from the carb overloading of the other three