Horrendous Holiday Treats

Ok. So horrendous is a pretty harsh word but here's my dilemma: I love holiday treats (to the point of being prepared for their annual associated weight gain). The dilemma is that I'm only allowed 225 grams of carbs per day, split between three meals and three snacks, and with a maximum of 75 grams at any of those meals / snacks. So, being the treat lover that I am I have a problem...

Now, before I go on, I want to mention the following... What you are about to read are the random musings of a sleep deprived, sugar craving, Type 2, non-insulin dependent, diabetic. To be honest, I am grateful that the phrase "non-insulin dependent" describes me. So, don't think I'm complaining or wishing to take shots of insulin by what I'm about to say ('cause I'm not!).

Sometimes I'm a little jealous of my sons Type 1 friend. I try to watch my carbs, but I crave sugar - a lot! I was told once that if I were to give up my diet drinks that craving would diminish over time... (Good luck with that one as it is one of the few "free" flavorful things I get to taste.) But I digress. I am occasionally jealous of our friend in that he gets to eat whatever he wants as long as he bolus's enough insulin to accommodate all of his desired carbs. While I'm left with just plain old willpower...

Willpower. What a word. When it works and you are successful it's an amazing feeling. When it fails it can be one of the lows of lows. "You know better!" "You couldn't even go for one day without failing!" "What were you thinking?" "You suck!" Those little words that you hear every time you're alone, late at night, after falling off the controlled sugar wagon - those daemons that haunt you in an attempt to suck away even more of your willpower.

I never figured out how to deal with willpower issues before becoming a diabetic. And now that the quality of my life, my future, depends upon willpower I MUST find a way to succeed.